December 18, 2005Discoveries and Explorations(Written by Adam a couple of hours before he died)Four years ago, at the age of 21, I made a self-discovery: the purpose of my life is to inspire people. Now I understand more about myself. My self-determination, courage, bravery, and optimistic, passionate outlook on life have “rubbed off” on friends, family, and even strangers. If I have inspired those around me, where better to inspire in the future than in a classroom? Indeed, I have wanted to be a teacher for as long as I can remember. A year ago I was pursuing a college professorship, but I concluded that the graduate program at Portland State was not what I wanted. I packed my apartment and headed out the door. That was 2004. 2005 would be a year of exploration and a new self-discovery: I have a gift for working with children. The past eight weeks have been some of the most scary, strenuous, challenging, and yet exciting times of my life. Eight weeks ago I was about to give up. I felt no point in pursuing a teaching career. But from somewhere in my psyche I found the strength to stand my ground and move forward. I was involved in a new self-exploration. I could never have been more surprised for what I discovered: It was not a college professorship that I wanted to pursue, but rather, a career working with children who have mild to moderate disabilities. Indeed, I always knew that I was good with kids, but, now, I understand the gift I have with children. At that moment, I wasted no time with focusing on a teaching career…in elementary education. I believe that we have to be willing to confront our fears and the unknown (i.e., what does the future hold?). For me, it was starting over. It was admitting that the direction I was taking was not where I wanted to go. I had to drop everything, and to accept that what I had was no longer what I wanted. Now, when I am told the job of a special education elementary school teacher, I can sincerely say, “That is EXACTLY what I want to do.” Working with kids who have mild to moderate disabilities will provide me with a chance to inspire an entire generation. It will complete my life’s purpose, and the discoveries and explorations I have made. I hope this story helps you in your own discoveries and explorations. Remember, there is courage in all of us. Good luck! |